inner kingdom

Mortality, I sense it.

This summer we traveled to Texas to participate in my aunts 90th birthday celebration. I love my family and we utilize every available opportunity to get together. This unique group extends beyond the sisters and brothers but includes great uncles and aunts and their children as well. In fact, my grandfather and his siblings were so close that their children have retained relationships over the four generations.

I miss my mom

As I prepared to go, my thoughts went to my mom. She would have been 86 this year. I miss hearing her voice, calling her at all times of the day, and just knowing that I had her wise counsel on speed dial. But I had to be realistic, parents don’t live forever. In fact, none of us do.

The sober sixties

I am now at the age where I look back over my shoulder and there are more years behind than ahead. Don’t get me wrong, life is wonderful. I have many reasons to press forward. I have dreams to fulfill, hearts to love, a legacy to establish. But it is sobering to think that one day, I’ll be a memory too. I don’t dwell on it yet it fuels me. I want to accomplish my dreams. Everything now has a sense of urgency on one hand but a clarity of purpose on the other. I am not going to just work, oh no, I have people to love, moments to share, kind words to speak to strangers. Living life with intensity, that is the sobering part. When we are young we waste so much time being someone else, wanting things without value, holding grudges, filling life with unnecessary drama. I am smiling because all of that mindset is gone now.

I am raising my daughter to have a soberness about life in hopes of her finding her purpose. I want her to see herself as a divine contributor to her class, school, community, family, and world. There are so many lacking thoughtfulness in her age group that she could easily grow up without understanding that all children do not have a home or food. She has to learn about discrimination and hate so that she can be empowered to demonstrate her loving inner strength to cowards. This world cannot afford the upcoming generations to ‘learn’ compassion on the fly, we have to awaken it now in the hearts of our children. They can change this trajectory of the planet if given a chance.

Honestly, this line of thinking is normal for me. I have always had a tinge of seriousness about life. In fact, I have learned to be more serendipity, to just let life flow as I have gotten older. Life is sobering because from the moment we are born, our destination is approaching. We thrive by thinking about the good things. Let’s be good to one another.

inner kingdom

Self-Exploration, Why?

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I see the world through a spiritual lens. I ground myself in Christian mysticism. The life of Christ is an icon, compass, and road map to help us find our way in life. We should love; ourselves and one another. Christ calls us to believe in love. God is love. In my view, every solution begins with knowing this one truth; “We are born with a purpose”.

We live on a planet. The universe is expansive yet, it does not go on forever. Who would create such a wonderous place for us to live? My answer is a creative creator who loves us. Why is it then that we as human beings are in general so destructive? My assessment is that we don’t know who we are. We don’t grasp what we have to give (share). We don’t know the mystery hidden within.

Look in the mirror

For now, we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. 1Corinthians 13:12 (NKJV)

When you look in the mirror, what do you see? You may say, my features, my nose or ears, my eyebrows, my deep brown eyes, but these are just reflections. When you look in the mirror you see an image of yourself but the image is not you. There is a slight distortion in that mirror but it is the best tool that we have to be able to see ourselves.

Let me tap into a mystery. When I see a mountain, I see the majestic creativity of God but the mountain is not God. When I look into the sky and see the infinite stars seemingly floating in space, I see God but God is not a star. Find a human being. Look into their eyes, unlike the mirror, there is no distortion. What if I told you that you just saw yourself? Most would say, ‘that’s not me, that is someone else.’ I would say, you are saying that because of the image you see in the mirror but in reality, we are not ‘separate’. We are the same yet uniquely different. You are made in the image of the creator, designed to reflect love, compassion, and kindness. If you can’t see it in yourself, keep looking into the faces around you. Launch out, seek, and be amazed as you discover yourself.

We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us! 1Corinthians 13:12 (Message)

What will I discover?

When we embrace finding our true selves, we find treasures hidden within us, waiting for us to discover. You find your passion, and what gives you joy. You tap into your source, which is divine. The false-self becomes jealous, embodies hatred, and destroys everything around it. We are seeing this in our world today. When we tap into our true selves, we find a peace. We are giving. We celebrate one another and share; there is no need to steel, kill, or destroy.

Self-exploration is the journey that gives life meaning. I encourage you to start if you haven’t and continue with reckless abandonment, if you have already. One of the reasons why I wrote the book Seven Keys To Awaken The Kingdom Within, was to help individuals who have had an awakening go deeper in self-discovery to be a divine being. There are many authors who can help, Louise Hay is one of my favorites. When you begin to wake up, your dreams become reality, you become a co-creator. We need you, the real, authentic, no one else in the world, you!

Self-discovery is not about having a dream. It is knowing why you were born. You were not born just to survive. You were born to thrive. Your presence in this world is not by accident. Your parents were convenient to you being here but not necessary because you already existed in love, in God. Why are you alive, at this moment, on this planet? What gifts were deposited into your dna that are needed in this world? I am committed to getting everyone started on their journey of self-discovery.